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8/28/17

the void we avoid






























I exist.

It is soft, so soft, so slow. 
And light: 
it seems as though it suspends in the air. 
It moves. 

- Jean-Paul Sartre

8/14/17

not impossible

All of a sudden the wall at the end -
it appears, too clear.

Agnes Dene's Manifesto from 1969
working with a paradox
defining the elusive
visualizing the invisible
communicating the incommunicable
not accepting the limitations society has accepted
seeing in new ways
living for a fraction of a second and penetrating light years
using intellect and instinct to achieve intuition
achieving total self-consciousness and self-awareness
being creatively obsessive
questioning, reasoning, analysing, dissection and re-examining
understanding the finitude of human existence and still striving to create
beauty and provocative reasoning
finding new concepts, recognising new patterns
desiring to know the importance or significance of existence
seeing reality and still being able to dream
persisting in the eternal search

8/2/17

self-correcting maladjustment

QUOTE from Democracy by Joan Didion, 1984

...as the granddaughter of a geologist I learned early to anticipate the absolute mutability of hills and waterfalls and even islands... A hill is a transitional accommodation to stress, and ego may be a similar accommodation. A waterfall is a self-correcting maladjustment of stream to structure, and so, for all I know, is technique.

7/24/17

find me in the desert
half prepared, thirsty, thirty

7/6/17

sensory poem

FOUND a poem on the shelf

The drumming of ping pong balls
Mysterious, greenish
The chewing of ice
River
Smooth like a desert
Raw, green, heavy
Like the relief of oxygen after drowning

Clean and new like a new sheet of paper
Smooth as water
Like walking on the clouds with my eyes closed

The missing flavor like missing a right shoe
Dreamy like sleeping after staying up until three in the morning

7/3/17

Magical Thinking

BOOK The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion (2005)

"I know why we try to keep the dead alive: we try to keep them alive in order to keep them with us. I also know that if we are to live ourselves there comes a point at which we must relinquish the dead, let them go, keep them dead."